“MJ is bald and he’s the greatest.” -Chris Conrad
Seven words. Boom. He’s great and he’s bald, I’m bald, so I’m great? Totally, right?! Coach Conrad for the encouragement win!
In all seriousness though, there are a million other words of encouragement you’ve sent since Wednesday that got me here today on top of those seven words. I am so appreciative of all of you!! I write tonight with the sole purpose of making sure you know how much I needed your support this week & how I’m functioning today because of all of you. I’m not totally out of my funk yet but I’m feeling leaps and bounds better than I did Wednesday. Team Beef for the win!
As for me and the hair, I did finally look in the mirror this morning. Truth be told I had the actual reveal via google hangouts with my bestie Kaela. She pushed me to take off my hat while also trying to convince me that I could in fact pull off a scarf. She and her husband are coming to visit in two weeks, we shall see if she’s right! I also washed my “hair” for the first time today. So weird. As for looking in the mirror? It’s not that bad. I haven’t taken my hat off yet though. The Hawks are getting a ton of support from me these days. 😂 I haven’t found my courage to rock my bald head yet. As I’m sorting life out since Wednesday, the bald sucks but it really is the symbol of cancer that is getting me. The symbol of all I’ve lost. But. The hair part isn’t changing so I’ve got to change my attitude. I’m giving myself through noon tomorrow to be a baby about it and then onward & upward. You can’t start 2017 in a funk! I have said it to a few of you now but I am 100% convinced that cancer is just as much a mental game as it is a physical game, so a bald head can’t stand in the way of my mental game heading into a chemo week. I promise to be brave enough soon to post a pic. My awesome husband came home Wednesday with a shaved head. Granted, it was about a half of an inch of hair sacrifice (😂), but it meant the world. And now we are twins so as soon as I’m brave enough, I’ll share with you all.
Thank you a million times for picking me up in one of my hardest weeks since this all started. You guys are doing more for me & Kevin than you will ever know! So much love for all of you!!
I’m on a three day break from treatment thanks to the New Year, so very thankful for that. No plans yet for the weekend as we were planning on it being a “chemo weekend.” Stay tuned!