How long, on average, does it take you to get writing ’17 instead of ’16? I think by March I usually get the rent check right! (Mortgage now, oops!)
Happy New Years! I trust that you all had a great time ringing in the new year! We had a quiet, “felt like normal life,” night and it was perfect. Kevin made a feast of ribs, mac & cheese and beans. We watched Ohio State get shut out and loved every minute of it (sorry Vonderhaar’s!!). We toasted champagne. We didn’t talk anything about cancer but instead talked about everything we want to do in 2017 & beyond when this is all behind us. I had the courage to post our picture. I woke up this morning to so many encouraging texts & posts – you guys never fail me! I haven’t worn a hat once today. In fact, Toews escaped our backyard fence and a neighbor with a dog brought her back. I rocked bald without even thinking twice. Poor guys was probably like, what?! Thanks for the confidence!!
So what do we want to do in 2017? So much! We need to win the lottery to do it all, ha! A lot of talk was around travel. Fun places we’ve never been like Nashville, Napa and more. A tropical destination again, perhaps the Bahamas this time. Boston, a city that stole our hearts last year. Texas after so much Fixer Upper binge watching. The possibilities are endless! We’ve always been a couple to lean more towards spending money on trips and experiences rather than things. Memories go so much further and that means more to us now.
We also talked about running. I am dying to get back running. We talked about running the Soldier Field 10 miler on Memorial Day weekend. With treatment ending in February, that gives me three months to get in shape. It’s a big commitment but I love having something to look forward to! If you’re a runner, maybe we can make a fun thing out of it!
We talked about so much more and I think 2017 is going to be our best year yet. So many people wanted to never speak of 2016 again and while we certainly agree somewhat, there was so much good that happened up until October 20th. Kevin got a new job he loves, we spent a week in Mexico completely off the grid and had the time of our lives, visited all our buddies in AZ, I got to be part of my best friends wedding in Key West, where Kevin also caught a massive fish. The smile on his face that day might have been just a tad bit bigger than our wedding day. 😂 I’ve always been one that strongly believes everything happens for a reason and while we thought we were traveling so much as a “last” before having kids, it was to prepare us for the fight of our lives instead. Kevin taking that new job led to incredible flexibility when life fell apart. And since October 20th? We could dwell on the awful, there is a lot of it to dwell on after all. Instead, we choose to remember those last three months by the overwhelming amount of love and support we’ve received. We choose to remember that the darkest moments were always flipped by a thoughtful call or text, meals, a bouquet of flowers, a heartfelt letter, a hug, a simple,”I’m thinking of you.” We choose to remember everything you’ve done & said to let us know that Hallie is remembered and that we fight for her. As insanely difficult as it is (and this one we aren’t too good at yet) we choose to remember Hallie’s purpose here on Earth and draw from that in the hardest moments. We look forward to the “why” and pray that this cancer truly is cured and a family waits for us out there. We hope for a time that we can share Hallie’s story with a sibling or two! We look forward to a stronger marriage and we hope for a long life of opportunity to make sense of all we’ve learned through this. We hope for a long life to do what Kevin & I do best – have a blast!
God willing, two more months & only two more months ever of hell left. That gives us 10 months to rock life & I hope that as we sit here a year from now, I’m able to write that Option B was meant to be in some crazy way all along.
We wish you all the very best in the New Year! I pray none of you ever go through something like this but the way of the world means bad stuff will happen to all of us at some point. Sure makes the petty stuff fall off. There will always be so much out of our control, but as I’ve learned this year, there’s always so much in our control and that’s where all opportunity lies. I say we all make 2017 the best year yet!!
All our love,
Beef & Kevin