I am not sure that’s a word but go with me! Engagementversary! 5 years ago we went hiking on Cathedral Rock in Sedona, Arizona. Kevin’s thunder (or mine, I guess) was almost totally stolen by Paisley who nearly fell off a cliff on our way up. Typical, right? Well, we made it up & the rest is history. Looking back on it all, my advice to anyone wanting to get married? Find a guy that’ll wear a shirt representing your home town when he proposes – so thoughtful Kevy Bear! Yes, it was a St. Charles Storm shirt for all you STC readers! ๐Ÿ™‚ 

A lot has happened in 5 years! 

A lot has happened just today. A lot has happened this week. It hasn’t been my best week, but it has also been a great week. 

We finished our home study portion of the adoption process today. Our social worker is amazing. She made a comment about how neat we are. I could barely hide my snicker as I thought to myself, yeah, my house ALWAYS looks like this (enter champagne stained walls here!!). Not. The dogs rocked their part, especially Bear. Good work guys. How are we feeling? Beyond excited. Sad. Hopeful. It’s all so crazy. 

We’ve talked nursery colors and baby names the past few days. Some moments it’s amazing. Others it’s like howwww is this our life. But man, I can’t believe we are so close to being on profile!! We are so close to finally having our dream of being a family. Hallie is so close to being a big sister. ๐Ÿ’•

I then found out today a friend, a few years younger than me, was diagnosed with cancer. I can’t describe the anger I felt. The anger I FEEL. I kept telling her how unfair it is. She looked at me and said the same thing right back to me but forget me. I’m old news. This has to stop! Cancer is the freaking WORST. It really is just anger! It’s so unfair. I hate that word, but it is. No one deserves cancer, not even an 85 year old who has lived a long life blessed with kids and grandkids, let alone someone who hasn’t even gotten that opportunity yet!! It was a really, really hard part of our day.

So. Many. Emotions. 

And yes, file this post under one of those categorized as “free therapy” for me.

And then back to that old engagementversary! 

5 years ago today at this time, Kevin & I were off the grid with a bottle of champagne, Taco Bell (true story), sitting in a creek in the red rocks, dreaming & planning for the life that was now ours together. Forever. That day was so perfect. So perfect. But looking back now, you sure realize how much a ring is a ring, an engagement is an engagement and a wedding is just that, a wedding. A marriage though? That’s what it’s really about. I am really, really proud of us today. Our ability to roll with the punches together, our ability to laugh, our ability to hold each other up when we need it the most. Don’t get me wrong, cancer and the loss of Hallie has pushed us to the brink and beyond. Some days you need a complete do over with each other. But that’s what I love about us most, it always comes back to us. Us against the world. I don’t think I’ve ever really told anyone but that’s what’s inscribed on our wedding rings – Us Against the World. Prophetic? Perhaps! Really it’s a decision every day to wake up and fight together and I’m thankful that we do that. How else do you survive this?! Must be #halliestrong 

A storm is rolling in now so I have to take that as a good sign. Our first adoption interview was during a huge thunderstorm so I think God is telling us it’s going to be all good. It has to be! Thunderstorms, always for the win. 


2 thoughts on “Engagementversary

  1. I love this so much! It is a fight, a fight every day to keep your marriage strong, to put each other first and to lift each other up when we need it most. I’m sorry to hear about your friend. I feel very similar all these years later, there’s no “good advice” really because each treatment, each cancer, each situation is so different. It just stinks so bad. I know you’ll be a great support system to your friend. I’m so excited to hear more about the adoption. Keep us posted!


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