For the past two days I’ve gone to post a “birthday week” graphic for the sock drive we are doing this month to raise socks for our Hallie’s Hope care packages and I just couldn’t find the words. Running a foundation in memory of your daughter is naturally so intertwined with our own personal emotions that sometimes it’s just really hard. Said another way, most days I can easily compartmentalize my roles of co-founder and Hallie’s Mom. The posts of people in their socks or the notes we get about what this simple package of socks has meant helps, because it definitely drives our purpose and Hallie’s legacy. And then there are times, like this week, like this milestone Sunday, that don’t fit the “I can compartmentalize this,” criteria. Old Bethany would’ve found a way. New Bethany gave up on that post for the time being and instead realizes there are just some days I can’t. My brain isn’t #halliestrong this week. My brain is a Mom who would give anything to have never have needed to have a Foundation like this. A mom that would trade her fridge full of notes from cancer patients for a fridge of awful 2 year old art. No white lies needed on the awful part, I can confidently say between me and Kevin, Hallie would’ve never been a Picasso in training. I never know how long these waves of grief last so maybe tomorrow I can create that post but today, yesterday, I am a mom that just wants to hold her kid. To see her at two years old & to see the fiery personality she would’ve undoubtedly had. A mom that still can’t quite make sense of the fact that I’ll never get the chance to make real birthday party invitations for Hallie, a mom that wants to kick and scream, over invitations, at how unfair that is. How unfair all of this is.
We started off this sock drive with the thought that this was for Hallie, the hashtag we’ve used has been #forhallie (makes me realize we are winning in the creativity department!) but I’m realizing now this was actually so much more for us, Hallie’s Mom & Dad. The very small sliver of hope we desire to send through #hallieshope is that same sliver of hope each of you have sent us, by filling our front porch with socks all month long. Championing this life of ours, this great loss, truly is a team effort and y’all are knocking it out of the park. Thank you. 🧡
In Honor of National Women’s Day, I wanted to take a minute to celebrate all of the women on Team Hallie!Starting with my wife and co-founder (let’s be honest, founder) Bethany, you are my rock and the Foundation’s rock. Your strength and generosity never cease to amaze me. You never stop caring for others and it is truly amazing to witness. Thank you for supporting me always & supporting our dream of keeping Hallie’s name alive through our Foundation.To Kelly, who was so affectionately referred to for the longest time as Bethany’s, “cancer friend,” your strength through your fight was incredible to witness but your thoughtfulness in being a sounding board, mentor and most of all friend to Bethany while giving cervical cancer an old fashioned beat down yourself is what says most about you. Not to mention while also being an amazing wife and mom to Michael and son Marcus. The way you’ve jumped into the Foundation & the impact you’ve already made is impressive and I am thankful for you! To Hilary, our Dupree! Although you sometimes drive me insane with your 20 questions, you have been instrumental in the Foundation, especially notable were your sleepless nights in getting it up and running. You were and still are one of our strongest supporters through this ongoing fight, always ready to help or facetime to give us a laugh from the other side of the world. You have made a lot of bad days better! We love family time with you, Andy & our herd of dogs.To Sheila, you are an amazing asset to us, to Hallie, to #halliestrong. You friendship and support through our fight was incredible, over the top really (skunks!). You are an amazing wife and Mom of Hadley (a strong women in the making!) and Nolie. Although I think you are actually mom of 3 with Moe. I love you guys! And to Anna, my lovely sister in-law and Hallie’s Godmother. You have been a huge help with the Foundation. Thankfully you’re often the rational one that is so needed with all of our crazy ideas. I even appreciate your itineraries! You have also been one of our biggest supporters through everything we have been through, I appreciate how ready and willing you are to always step in and help. You are an amazing wife and soon to be momma. We are so excited for you and Brian! Can’t wait for baby Von.And most of all, to my Hallie girl. Even though your time on earth was brief you have changed our lives forever. I know you’re looking down and watching over all of us. You would have grown up to be a strong woman just like your momma, like all of these women on the board who work everyday to honor you and like all of women in our families. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. Your legacy is going to live on forever through all the hope we are spreading in your name!
Happy National Women’s Day! Proud to be #halliestrong.