The Backstory 

FB68361B-D2E4-41E5-B8A2-40553EEEDE69.jpegI first had a suspicion I was pregnant shortly after we got home from our best friends Hilary  & Andy’s wedding in Key West. I didn’t have a lot of the usual signs but I remember being crazy exhausted at work, for no reason. Kevin always joked we would get pregnant fast but I don’t think either of us thought THAT fast! I took a test (ok, like 5) and sure enough, I was. That night, I surprised Kevin with a mini Hjalmarsson Hawks jersey, #4 just like Dad to break the news. We were shocked, but so excited!! We spent the next couple of weeks surprising our parents, siblings and best friends.

At our first OB appointment in early September I had the normal onslaught of tests, including the PAP. A couple of weeks later I received a call from my doctor that mine came back abnormal, but no sweat, it’s probably nothing. They did want to schedule a colposcopy though to be sure, but couldn’t until my 16 week appt, when I was out of the first trimester and it was safe for the baby. It scared me but we did our best to put it out of mind for the 4 week wait. I’ve had a PAP every year and I’ve never had anything abnormal, so it had to be nothing. It had to be! Sadly, I never got to have a “normal” OB appointment where you’re filled with pure elation. I always had in the back of mind the “what if.”

The 16 week appointment was on a Friday. After the procedure, she immediately referred us to a gynecological oncologist and got us in on Monday morning. Looking back, we were so naieve in not putting those pieces together. We thought it’d be a cyst, no big deal. The word cancer never entered our mind. It wasn’t even a remote possibilty in our minds.

Within minutes of the procedure that Monday, Kevin and I were being told it was cancer and we’d lose our baby & we’d never have biological children again. I remember the room feeling so surreal. I remember sobbing but not understanding. On Thursday, October 20th I was officially diagnosed with Small Cell Neuroendocrine Carcinoma of the Cervix. The cancer was incredibly aggressive and because of it, we lost our daughter, Hallie Hope. Our hearts shattered in a million pieces & still are today.

I had a radical hysterectomy on 11/3 & went on to have ensure five rounds of chemo & 28 rounds of internal/external radiation simultaneously. I finished treatment in March of 2017 and recently had clear two year scans in 11/18, by God’s grace alone.

Today I continue to battle a lot of physical issues from the treatment but all in all, we are grateful for continued reports of NED. I will continue to have quarterly check ups and bi-annual scans for the next three years.

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23 thoughts on “The Backstory 

  1. Kevin and Beth- I know I’ve only worked with Kevin a short period of time and Beth we’ve never met. I just wanted to let you know that after reading your story my prayers will be with you. As hard as it might be to understand, God does have a reason for putting his children through tough, but not impossible, seasons. As my dad always told me, continue reaching out for his robe and he’ll guide you.

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  2. You’ve got the Cousins family holding you up in prayer. Asking God for healing in a mighty way; healing your body and healing your hearts! Praise God for an amazing family that will walk through this with you. #prayerchangesthings 💜

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  3. So sorry to hear about this, Beth. If there is anyone who can fight through this and teach others about determination, you would be that girl! My mom taught me a long time ago that something good always comes out of those rough spots – and she was right, time and time again. Something positive is going to blossom from this as well. Not sure when or how, but it will. Hang in there, and do know, you truly have an army of supporters out here praying and sending positive thoughts to you!

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    1. Hey Beef,

      I have been following along with the blog and I wanted to let you and your family know you have been in my thoughts and prayers. I know you are a leader and a fighter and I have no doubt that this is an obsticle that you will overcome. You continued optimism and positivity in our office now has the chance to reflect back on you through 100’s of people who support you in your fight to beat this. I wish you strength and perseverence in this impossibly difficult time.

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  4. Thanks for creating the blog. Glad all is going so well. Flowers are scheduled for delivery to your apartment Tuesday. Prayers are being sent continually.

    Love,
    Grandma & Grandpa

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  5. Beef, you are amazing! Our hearts are heavy for you and Kevin right now but also very hopeful. Keeping you in our prayers – God and family will bring you through this.
    How about those Cubbies?! Couldn’t have happened to a more deserving team – what a nailbiter!
    xoxo

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  6. Bethany, I am so saddened by this news. As horrible as this is, I know you are strong, young and surrounded by the most amazing support group possible. For what it’s worth, there’s an extended group of Sox/Blackhawk fans who offer our love and support. If we can be of any help, please let us know!!

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  7. Bethany –
    I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this. You are such a ray of sunshine, I know you are going to fight this! Thinking of you!!

    <3Kara Salazar

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  8. Bethany & Kevin, You are a fighter and will win this battle!! We are praying with all the others out there!! Huge hugs to you! XXOO Karen Porter

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  9. Thinking of you both❤️ You are so strong Beef keep up the good fight!!

    We heart the Hart’s!

    Love Lori and mike #livelaughlove;)

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  10. Beff and Kevin,

    You both and your families are in our thoughts and prayers! You both are FIGHTERS and you WILL BEAT this!!

    Much love,
    Dave, Amy ( The Mayor :))
    Abby And Cooper

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  11. Dearest Beef & Kevin. Our hearts are breaking for all you are going through. We love you both very much and our prayers are with you. You are so dear to us. Much love from Uncle Ted and Blondie

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  12. Bethany and Kev! My heart hit the floor when I heard the news. I’m so incredibly sorry you have to fight this. Thinking of you guys over and over again ❤ ❤ ❤

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  13. We love you and will be there with you through all of this. We are in awe of your strength and faith. We know that will get you through this unimaginable turn in your life. Our prayers will be continuous! Love you both

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  14. I’m so glad you started this blog. I know you, Kevin and your families are overwhelmed with what is going on right now so I have hesitated to bother you. I want you to know that we are all keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. I can only believe that God is going to bring you through this. We love you very much!
    (Nice nickname, Beef!)

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